A crazy 23 Feb night in school!

NTUOH 2012 SA Training Commences~

Lovely team for SBS/Quad

DEAREST TEAM AL! and all the madness everyone can offer <3
Esp Matt, the emperor, sure added truckloads of laughter and nonsense to colour our experience!


Dearest Sweetheart XN!
A path of blessed friendship lies ahead (:

And it's Friday! allowed me to sleep in much more than usual
Thank God, YMCA business information document is more or less 'approved' by CAO.
And, await good news from the school (:

God bless the week ahead of us!

On the other side

The picture that paints the exact way I feel.
Everything seems to be going downhill, and it sucks the energy and zest I possess.
Remembering what Jimmy said: what differentiates you is not based on the experiences you been through, but how you respond to them. And, so does the word of God inspires.
Press on dear myself, and do not rely on your own strength; but submit yourself to God, so He can work in your life!


And know that, somebody out there loves you.
And, God loves you too.

A 15min nap that turned into 2hours!

Thought a nap would wind down the pressing headache, but it did otherwise and aggravated it @.@

Perhaps it was due to the flashing intensive dreams- of him.
Flashbacks are still fresh.

Really felt like a dream

Pretty, shiny nails!

A series of random peektures that added colours to my mundane daily routines:

Freshly painted sparkly golden nails <3
@ 19 Feb


A First Time: Carrot Medley of Starbucks {:
A tinge of gentle sweetness that warms the heart
@ 17 Feb


A Studious Illustration
@ 18 Feb


Yours Truly
admist dissecting the brain-boggling reading


Here comes a new week ahead!

Enchanted

There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired place lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?" across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say

It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that

This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

It's the now, that counts

Jeremy Seaward is an amazing leader we have (:

I have something to announce: Jesus healed me today! At Edge, during the healing, as I prayed and as a net coordinator prayed for me too, I sensed His healing touch on me. The pain on my right leg left me. I am really grateful, thankful, amazed at that moment. It's like something annoying you for dont know how long, finally left me. Glory to God!

I've to admit that, at the same time I was yearning for healing, desiring God's touch to heal my injury; I was at the same time fearful. What happened if I myself was the one who doubt His ability? Where's my faith? I know I wanted it, and I trusted God, but just that moment, I doubted myself. I would have to say it was a struggle I had within myself. But my encounter with God, both before healing, and during healing, it just speaks of one thing: It isn't whether I can cast out that fear, but it is to cast the fear and worries onto Jesus, because He will share the burden and relief me from it. Trust in Him, and not on my own understanding.

Live by faith, and not by what I see

The Encounter with God was beyond words. The Spirit filled me, and I was overwhelmed; He was with me.
Pastor Jeremy did teach me one very important lesson: that is the aftermath of the Encounter. What is going to happen after that? Am I going to just leave it, and treat this as merely a one time experience?
The Encounter, calls for a deeper worship, a greater commitment, growing relationship with God. Walk closer with God, like I have been missing out. Stop being lazy, that is going to cost you.

Net Rally yesterday, was the first time I felt much more belonged; and I am thankful for the wonderful people God placed around me. Carmen's talked about the purpose of Net: To Win, Consolidate, Discipleship, Send.
We are called for greater, called for more.

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This entire week had been challenging. Emotionally. Feels like I'm losing it, losing grip of myself. And I know this can't go on like this. Even though I know this wouldn't work, I still hold on so tightly.
Let go, open up so that He can work in me and through me. I clearly know this, but I am obviously resisting?
This comment said to me by a friend yesterday, "You are so idealistic!"
Maybe, maybe not.

Only you can heal this scar, Lord.

These feelings wouldn't go away

Heartaches, especially much today.
It feels like my heart keeps crumpling up, and it hurts.

There are so much words I would like to say, all the emotions that I still bear in my heart; but I know they would not change anything even if they are being said. It would only seem to make things more painful.

I would like to, but I can't.

Been like this

Fill this void Lord,because no one else can do so.

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just as I sat down,flashbacks and thought of you.
Missing you.

You're amazing

Just the way you are by Boyce Avenue



You are amazing just the way you are (:


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My leg hurt to the core just now. Totally couldn't walk, like never occured before. Seriously, just as I land my right feet on the ground, the pain just shot all the way up. cannot take it :(

Mom was pushing me to take the medicine. Alright. Just as I finally stood up to get water, I prayed, calling God to relieve me of my pain just for this moment. And as I lay my right feet out and put pressure on it. The pain was gone. It was all gone, and I could walk to the kitchen to grab my cup of water.
I just found it amazing, like wow! It's more than just what my mind can do. Because I cant do it alone, only He can help me with it (: Amen!
And, sophie had been asking about my leg like gazillion times, I guess it's really time I go to the Chinese physician she recommended.

I pray that the youth service 'invitation' cards I gave out this week will speak something to those who received it (: God Bless You!

What do I do?

Just thinking..

"if I were to see you with another girl, or to see another girl in your arms, how will I feel? what will I do?"

I wonder how will I respond on the spot.